I did not grow up in a healthy religious home. There was some substantial trauma which led me to turn my back on all things “God” related. I made a decision at an early age that I would need to take the “I can do it myself” approach. 

Poor decisions were made that led me to feel shame and guilt, compounding my belief that God was no place for me. I didn’t feel as though I was worthy, and certainly didn’t feel as though he would “show up” to help when I needed him. It became a bit of a survival tool to not look to him for help, that way I could never be disappointed when he didn’t show up. 

I managed to fight my way through life until my father passed away when I was 39 years old. After his death I found myself unable to leave the house. I was having severe panic attacks. I could not be in any situation where I felt trapped. I couldn’t leave the house to meet with a therapist so I was left with no choice but to look up and ask for help. This began my spiritual journey. I found God thru a spiritual mentor that had been on a journey to “know” God since the day she was born. She understood me and everything about me, my trauma, my guilt, my pain, my defiance, my everything. One step at a time she led me into the presence of God where I found peace, love, true happiness and self-acceptance.

It has been a 20 year journey and my only regret is why it took me so long to give in, let down my guard, and trust that God does care, that he does love me and that he would fight for me even harder than I would fight for myself.

My spiritual mentor is the author of this book, and my sister, Maurita Burgett. 

My hope for the person reading this book is that this literary journey will place you on the path that she put me on 22 years ago. The path to knowing the love of God and how that path alone can drastically change your life trajectory.

Enjoy the journey!